Hey guys! So I just opened up this new page of the blog to really express the up and down moments in the process of writing my novel. Lately, I've been writing on-and-off, especially since I've just finished my piano certifications.
As I write each chapter of my novel, I've come to realize that it is like a reflection of my past, present and future. The good, the bad, and definitely the ugly. I've explored and watched endless reruns of my life challenges in relationships, friendships and family. Even what lies underneath the deception I have experienced and committed, I still - to this day - am learning. With every emotion, I replay it in my head, think back to what it really felt like at the time it happened to me. Although I am essentially forcing myself into a past I am desperate to leave behind, I relive these nightmares in my novel. I'm sure all novelists often place a piece of themselves in their writing, something personal that only belongs to them. Every novelist has to endure the long journey to complete a book, even if it results in blood, sweat and tears.
But in the end, it's all worth it to me. I can physically put all these ideas and feelings onto paper, especially the feelings I hide from myself. Often, I numb myself from feeling and this has been one of the biggest hardships. Too many experiences have taught me too many life lessons, I still struggle to rectify those mistakes.
As I write each chapter of my novel, I've come to realize that it is like a reflection of my past, present and future. The good, the bad, and definitely the ugly. I've explored and watched endless reruns of my life challenges in relationships, friendships and family. Even what lies underneath the deception I have experienced and committed, I still - to this day - am learning. With every emotion, I replay it in my head, think back to what it really felt like at the time it happened to me. Although I am essentially forcing myself into a past I am desperate to leave behind, I relive these nightmares in my novel. I'm sure all novelists often place a piece of themselves in their writing, something personal that only belongs to them. Every novelist has to endure the long journey to complete a book, even if it results in blood, sweat and tears.
But in the end, it's all worth it to me. I can physically put all these ideas and feelings onto paper, especially the feelings I hide from myself. Often, I numb myself from feeling and this has been one of the biggest hardships. Too many experiences have taught me too many life lessons, I still struggle to rectify those mistakes.