Tired:
Tired of people leaving me behind,
tired of being told I'm not good enough.
Tired of trying so hard to meet their expectations,
tired of failing.
Tired of sobbing into my pillowcase,
tired of waking up with puffy eyes.
Tired of bottling my emotions,
tired of being numb.
Tired of people coming in and out of my life,
tired of being hopeful, hoping to god that they'll stay.
But
there are things we can't control,
things we can't foresee,
things we can't change.
There are people we can't have,
people we can't keep,
people we can't ask to stay, just for a little while,
so the next time it happens again,
we'll be a little less broken.
I don't think time is the healer of all wounds,
no,
it's not the distractions either,
not a job or school or friends or family or music.
These are the things that distract us, that
is the escape from reality.
It's not the alcohol,
the drugs,
the FWBs.
Who knows? -
Maybe hope doesn't exist,
maybe it's meant to be meaningless.
All the 5am calls,
the late night movies,
the intimacy,
the inside jokes,
the fighting,
the crying,
the breaks;
all of this for
nothing.
Tired of people leaving me behind,
tired of being told I'm not good enough.
Tired of trying so hard to meet their expectations,
tired of failing.
Tired of sobbing into my pillowcase,
tired of waking up with puffy eyes.
Tired of bottling my emotions,
tired of being numb.
Tired of people coming in and out of my life,
tired of being hopeful, hoping to god that they'll stay.
But
there are things we can't control,
things we can't foresee,
things we can't change.
There are people we can't have,
people we can't keep,
people we can't ask to stay, just for a little while,
so the next time it happens again,
we'll be a little less broken.
I don't think time is the healer of all wounds,
no,
it's not the distractions either,
not a job or school or friends or family or music.
These are the things that distract us, that
is the escape from reality.
It's not the alcohol,
the drugs,
the FWBs.
Who knows? -
Maybe hope doesn't exist,
maybe it's meant to be meaningless.
All the 5am calls,
the late night movies,
the intimacy,
the inside jokes,
the fighting,
the crying,
the breaks;
all of this for
nothing.