I don’t know why, but I couldn’t fall asleep. Maybe it’s because the nights are the hardest.
With less than 3 hours of sleep, I suddenly woke up at 4AM last night. A wave of unhappiness and loneliness mixed together crashed down on me. I was crying by then, thinking:
“How could I he such a fool, to believe you hadn’t quite moved on, when I was the one who was still stuck in the past? How could I break my own heart, muttering words that took every piece of me away?”
How could you let me believe such a wild thing, as if we ever even had a second chance? How could you set up these traps, say the words I’ve wanted to hear, then watch me hit rock bottom?
How did I let myself trust you, even though you’ve lied to me for the longest time?
Fuck.
I ask myself to forget about that day - the last day I saw your face - but sadly, I cannot.
This scene replays itself over and over in my head - when I'm at home, on the bus, at school.
I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try.
With less than 3 hours of sleep, I suddenly woke up at 4AM last night. A wave of unhappiness and loneliness mixed together crashed down on me. I was crying by then, thinking:
“How could I he such a fool, to believe you hadn’t quite moved on, when I was the one who was still stuck in the past? How could I break my own heart, muttering words that took every piece of me away?”
How could you let me believe such a wild thing, as if we ever even had a second chance? How could you set up these traps, say the words I’ve wanted to hear, then watch me hit rock bottom?
How did I let myself trust you, even though you’ve lied to me for the longest time?
Fuck.
I ask myself to forget about that day - the last day I saw your face - but sadly, I cannot.
This scene replays itself over and over in my head - when I'm at home, on the bus, at school.
I can't get rid of you, no matter how hard I try.