Hey guys. I haven't written in awhile, so I do want to mention that a lot has changed in my life in the past couple months. First, I'm single. Again. I know, it sucks.
Long story short, the guy I was dating was going through some issues and became rather distant in the process. I confronted him about it, asking if he lost feelings - he didn't lose feelings, he still loved me, but that he wasn't able to focus on a relationship right now. I respected his honesty, even though I had to push him.
Second, I got 2 jobs lined up for the summer, meaning I'll be pretty busy 7 days a week.
Third, I'm making intricate plans for the end of the summer - I'll let you guys know closer to the date. I call it "the plan". Cool name, right?
Finally, something happened today. I was working today in the afternoon, when 2 of the people who I dread to see most walk in! Guess who? My ex, Liam, and my ex best friend, Amber - how ironic that they hated each other once and now they're friends again...
They walk in, and my stomach drops. My head hurts. My chest hurts too. It felt like a whammy to the chest, if anything, like I was suffocating. I struggled to catch my breath and even my trainer noticed my odd behavior; I tried to focus on the task at hand. As long as I didn't have to talk to them or look at them, then everything would be fine.
In case you're wondering, no, I don't harbor any feelings for my ex nor ex best friend. For both, I only have hatred. But when I saw my ex, I felt scared, not sad. I felt like "shit, he found out where I work. What if he starts pestering me with phone calls, texts, or approaches me when I'm working? FUCK."
Let's just say that today was not the best type of day. I hope I never have to see either of them again.
Long story short, the guy I was dating was going through some issues and became rather distant in the process. I confronted him about it, asking if he lost feelings - he didn't lose feelings, he still loved me, but that he wasn't able to focus on a relationship right now. I respected his honesty, even though I had to push him.
Second, I got 2 jobs lined up for the summer, meaning I'll be pretty busy 7 days a week.
Third, I'm making intricate plans for the end of the summer - I'll let you guys know closer to the date. I call it "the plan". Cool name, right?
Finally, something happened today. I was working today in the afternoon, when 2 of the people who I dread to see most walk in! Guess who? My ex, Liam, and my ex best friend, Amber - how ironic that they hated each other once and now they're friends again...
They walk in, and my stomach drops. My head hurts. My chest hurts too. It felt like a whammy to the chest, if anything, like I was suffocating. I struggled to catch my breath and even my trainer noticed my odd behavior; I tried to focus on the task at hand. As long as I didn't have to talk to them or look at them, then everything would be fine.
In case you're wondering, no, I don't harbor any feelings for my ex nor ex best friend. For both, I only have hatred. But when I saw my ex, I felt scared, not sad. I felt like "shit, he found out where I work. What if he starts pestering me with phone calls, texts, or approaches me when I'm working? FUCK."
Let's just say that today was not the best type of day. I hope I never have to see either of them again.