This was probably one of the hardest chapters I've ever written, and I'm not even finished it yet. It's not easy to face your fears. The easy way out is to run.
"Leo this isn't even about you. You don't get it!"
"That's where you're wrong, Amelia. I do get it. I get the pain, I get the confusion, the loneliness. I get all of it. But what I don't get is why you have to take this into your own hands without, for even a second, thinking about the one person who loves you. You didn't stop to think about me. You didn't think that killing yourself would mean the end of my world. God, Amelia, you're the reason I live, and it really sucks that I'm not yours."
"This has nothing to do with you. Fuck, why can't you see that the pain I'm in every single day will never go away? I just don't want to live this way."
"It involves me when you're willing to leave the one person you love behind."
For a moment, they don't speak.
"Y'know what? Do whatever you want, Amelia, because clearly I don't matter to you."
"What the hell do you mean? Of course, you matter to me!"
"That's the thing – it sounds like I don't. You're willing to take the extreme measures so what? So you can escape? Let me give you a reality check - you can't escape from life! This is life, deal with it. But you have me, so you won't have to deal with it alone.
And yes, for the record, you are selfish for not even thinking of me, for making a decision without even talking to me about it. We are a couple – we are together. Where the fuck is my escape, huh?"
"Leo, you'll get over me. You'll meet someone so much better than me."
"No, goddamit, I don't want to and won't ever meet someone like you. Fuck Amelia, you still don't get it. I love you. I always will."
"That's where you're wrong, Amelia. I do get it. I get the pain, I get the confusion, the loneliness. I get all of it. But what I don't get is why you have to take this into your own hands without, for even a second, thinking about the one person who loves you. You didn't stop to think about me. You didn't think that killing yourself would mean the end of my world. God, Amelia, you're the reason I live, and it really sucks that I'm not yours."
"This has nothing to do with you. Fuck, why can't you see that the pain I'm in every single day will never go away? I just don't want to live this way."
"It involves me when you're willing to leave the one person you love behind."
For a moment, they don't speak.
"Y'know what? Do whatever you want, Amelia, because clearly I don't matter to you."
"What the hell do you mean? Of course, you matter to me!"
"That's the thing – it sounds like I don't. You're willing to take the extreme measures so what? So you can escape? Let me give you a reality check - you can't escape from life! This is life, deal with it. But you have me, so you won't have to deal with it alone.
And yes, for the record, you are selfish for not even thinking of me, for making a decision without even talking to me about it. We are a couple – we are together. Where the fuck is my escape, huh?"
"Leo, you'll get over me. You'll meet someone so much better than me."
"No, goddamit, I don't want to and won't ever meet someone like you. Fuck Amelia, you still don't get it. I love you. I always will."